I did it! 32 posts from March 07-April 07. As declared, one post each day, including 4 guest posts edited by me. Why did I do it though? Because I needed to remind myself that I can write something else other than marketing materials and emails. I didn’t have to prove anything to anyone but myself.
By 7th day into this challenge, I wanted to give up. I had only scattered thoughts and no ideas. I still pushed myself to write something, anything! On some days, I had 5 different documents, each one with 2-3 lines. Some topics were so sensitive and reminded me of so many events that it was hard to focus and not get distracted. I still couldn’t finish writing some of them. But I still managed to post every single day!
To my surprise, this process has been therapeutic. I feel more present, more in-tune with myself and more confident. There is something gratifying to just promise something to ourselves and to keep that promise. Especially for someone like me who has a pattern of leaving projects unfinished. There is also something extraordinarily liberating to not care about the number of “likes”. I am proud of all my posts. All of them! I am equally proud of the ones that got hundreds of hits and the ones that got less than 50. Each post is a proof that I pushed through deep rooted issues of procrastination and distraction— something that I have suffered from my entire life.
I found solid support from few people who took time out of their busy lives to read my posts every single day and provided valuable feedback. “How is today’s post coming along?” “When will it be published today?” I dreaded these questions and pushed through discomfort and fear of writing something gibberish. Many of my posts are published at around 11.30 pm because I waited till last minute, as usual. But I still met the deadline. There were so many personal messages and comments on my posts, and many of them were from people I expected the least. Even feedback like “Didn’t really get it” helped me tremendously. I was reminded that our visions and ideas vary and we don’t necessarily enjoy the same stories. It has less to do with the quality of a piece and more to do with personal taste. And most importantly, I realized how crucial it is for me to have internal validation. Thank you, for supporting me in this journey. Thank you, for mending a broken spirit.